gibberish...and DANES!

4 days left...friday morning im heading out. im soo tired. like my mind can't seem to really focus on anything right now. i just need a vacation. anyhoo..im really hoping that i have a nice time. it's weird i luv it here in chicago/joliet..but sometimes i need to get away and think. whenever i go to arkansas it just seems like this weight is lifted and i can see a little clearer. i think its because i don't really have any worries when im home. it's truly a relaxing environment. because my real life is up here. and when i leave for a bit i can let it all go for a while. so, yeah it's nice to have a "getaway"...or as a pastor mentiond my "island of patmos" (remember how john was able to get away (well banished) to his island, but he got alone w/ God).

oh well. danes is home!!!! if she reads this i want her to know im so proud of her making it through her first semester of college. it's not an easy feat to go away for college. but i think it can help mold you into natural and spiritual maturity. i truly believe that in being here i've gotten to know God for myself. i can't say that when i left high school i was spiritually rooted. sure i was saved, but it was more like a way of life (being brought up COG) instead of being a true experience. i didn't experience God for myself until i had to seek and get to know him for myself. looking back, on those things i've gone through i can truly say they've brought me closer to God and it's been this experience that's kept me saved. so, yeah. i truly hope danes has that same experience. don't get me wrong, i dont think you have to leave to get it...but i would encourage every young person (espeacially in their young adult years) to take time and get to know God for YOU. whether it's finding a niche of your own or delving into your special talent...find God and get an experience. and do it before you go after the next phase of your life, so you can enter that phase knowing that as a single adult you finished your "single life" race and came out with those triumphs and victories he wanted you to win. let him take you out of your comfort level. let him do some molding and refining. Draw nigh to Him, so that he'll draw nigh to you. it'll take you a long way in life. ok....enough! goodnight!