I'mmm BACK!

hey everyone! im back.(not that anyone reads this enough to notice.) but, here i am and with my testimony of praise that I promised. God has once again proven himself in my life. this was such a difficult year for me. it was like i was in a test of faith. there were so many times i felt like i didnt really know the voice of god or that b/c things weren't going the way i'd planned, maybe i'd misinterpreted his will. but through it all god worked out all the little details and blessed. it seems like it was one thing after another. but in each situation he worked them out. like one by one, actually. so, my faith has been tested, but i got my blessing! God is so good and real. David refers to him as the "Living God". And that he is. so, it's almost time for the summer. i know i'll be busy decorating my new place, getting ready for teaching a different grade in the fall, and just trying to rest more in his will and enjoying the life he's given me. we'll see how well i update. here's a pic of trese and i at the may fellowship (which was AWESOME!!!). if you weren't there you missed it. anyway, may would not be may without me and my bff trese taking our pics together. (yes, i look horrible! we were at the park..what do you expect!)luv.

pics...link

i said i wasnt going to update. but here are some pics to enjoy while im gone.

http://northwestern.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2066608&l=e5aa3&id=2415867

spring break and a break....

thanks to everyone for your birthday wishes. it was great. i got to spend time in AR for the weekend..PLUS we had a nice revival (in AR) with P.Hodges. This week (back here in the Joles) we're in revival with P. Jones (FL). It's been great. Last night he preached on "The Power to Produce Prosperity." If you've never heard his testimonies on faith, you should try and get this tape/cd. Check out our church website http://www.jolietchurchofgod.org, perhaps mares will load it up so you can hear it.

OKAY. i'm officially on Spring Break from work. AND I've decided to take a little break from the blog. No, I'm not getting rid of it. I'm just not going to be writing for a while. With all of these revivals, I've decided to take some time out and really do some digging. I have a lot of decisions right now. I'm letting go and letting God. No more about what I want. So, yeah. These things take time. Feel free to say hello every now and then. See you in May if you're coming to the revival. If not..., until, June..when I'm back. By faith, I'm claiming to have a good testimony by then. luv,

drumroll, please...

And so what we've all been waiting for has begun....

The Official Countdown



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(ok, so maybe i was just waiting for it. ;) )

Happy Birthday!

so, i told you there were a lot of birthdays in these months. :)

Happy Birthday, Eliza/Lizm! (sorry...no pic)


And happy belated birthday, Pooh. (although you'll probably never see it.)

jenny's thoughts on SNOW.

i hope she doesn't mind. but it's really good. Happy reading!

Snow Uggggghhhhh (A must read!!!)


Hi everybody.
I know some of you aren't in Chicago but I hope you enjoy the message anyway
Why is snow a good insulator? Fresh, undisturbed snow is composed of a high percentage of air trapped among the lattice structure of the accumulated snow crystals. Since the air can barely move, heat transfer is greatly reduced. Fresh, uncompacted snow typically is 90-95 percent trapped air.

So, I was looking at the snow coming down and, of course, almost fixed my mouth to complain about driving in that stuff. That’s when God brought something back to my mind. I just asked Him for snow a few days ago. What is wrong with me? Well, I’ll tell you.

We all know how cold it’s been in Chicago . 6○ with wind-chills of 28○ below!!!! And dry as a bone. That harsh dry wind was dangerous. It was killing people!!! I was listening to the news yesterday morning and the newscasters were strongly suggesting that people stay home. They were telling people to only go out if it was a great need to do so. They also said that if you had to go out, make sure all of you skin was covered. That’s really something, isn’t it?

Look at us now! Just a day later and it’s snowing and the temperature is supposed something like 0○ but it feels warmer already AND in a day or two, it’s supposed to be in the 20s. Not ideal right? But it’s way better than 6 and definitely better than feeling like 28 below!!!

Why is it getting warmer? Because the snow is an insulator for the Earth. We needed snow!

“Why is snow a good insulator? Place your hand on the snow, and your hand will get cold. But, if you dig down into the snow, you can build a cave that will enable you to stay comfortable for an extended period. This is because snow is mostly air. (Fresh powder is 93% air.) Air spaces between the crystals work the same way as air spaces between fibers of wool or goose down, preventing air movement and slowing heat loss. Thus, the lighter and fluffier the snow, the better insulator it will be. Old, hard snow has less air (60-70%) and feels colder if you build a burrow in it or even stand on it.”

So when it snows, it makes the Earth feel warmer!

Think with me spiritually. We die spiritually when our lives are barren and cold and dry.

I am in need of great patience. This area of my life is cold and barren (hypothetically, of course). I always snap at people. I don’t have time to talk to my siblings/spouse/co-worker/classmate/boss, etc. I know that if I don’t get the victory in that area, I will die. The newscaster (Pastor, or minister) warn me not to go out and if I have to go out, I need to have all of my vulnerabilities covered (with prayer, reading and fasting). I know that the snow will warm up my experience, so I pray to God for snow.

When the snowy days (situations that cause me to seek God for more patience) come, my first inclination is to complain about having to deal with the undesired situation, but God brings back to my minds the times I prayed for snow. Dealing with the elements in this situation causes me to be strengthened. The fear of and opportunity for death has ebbed away.

1 Peter 1:7 “That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.”

Romans 5:3 – 4 “And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; and patience, experience; and experience, hope:”

One of my favorite songs says

“God has not promised you, sunshine
That’s not the way it’s going to be
But a little rain
Mixed with God’s sunshine
A little pain
Helps me appreciate the good times
Be grateful


God desires to feel
Each longing
Every pain that you feel
He feels them just like
But he can’t afford to let you feel
Only good
Then you won’t appreciate the good times
Be grateful
For it will be alright”

So, be grateful for both the literal snow and the figurative snowy/rainy situations. It delivers us from the danger of death in a cold, barren place.I hope this was as much a blessing to you as it was to me.

Love y’all
Jen

babble

being from arkansas and all, i never thought i'd say 40 degree weather was "lovely." but, that's what it was this week. i even got "hot" enough to drive with my window down. too bad we didnt get that 70 degree weather some others got. but it was good all the same. oh well, today it's supposed to be freezing rain and snow..and then snow all week. so it seems winter isn't over yet. but maybe can all be like jenny and her snow philosophy. it's pretty good. she'll have to write it for us..or maybei i'll share it in my next post.

nothing else going on...last sat. we had our monthly yp event. this month we had a potluck at the church and had to dress up as bible characters or historical black people (for black history month). of course i was super busy all week, so didn't have time to come up with a person until i got there. but i must say, i pulled it off pretty well. im not going to tell you, though, who/what i was. you'll have to go to liz's website and see her pics (when she gets them up. she also has some good info on black history). see if you can guess. (and when you do, just know..im not some horrible, fanatic person. who/what i am did do some good in the community. so dont get any wrong ideas.) after we ate (good food, good food) we played the cup game, black history trivia, and then talked. we had so much food left that the next day (yp's sunday) we finished off the leftovers. i think next month we're visiting danes (yeah!!). later!

ps. the birthday countdown is about to begin!!! (mine that is.) oh, and before i forget...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to...Leila (2/27?...i think???..tell me and i'll change it..sorry!)and Keila (3/2).

the last sin eater

so, yesterday i read this book the last sin eater by francine river. im sure most people have read it by now. (i know im late!) anyway, here are a few excerpts that were a blessing to me:

"I didn't realize I was entering a battle - one I could win only by trusting in the Lord. And trust, for me, aint easy to do. It's a learned thing, comin' one step at a time."

"Satan will prey upon your doubts and fears and try to drive you away from the Lord your God, for it is your heart he wants and your mind he will attack. Remember he is the father of lies and a murderer...but the Lord prevail[s] against him. Only the Lord prevails."

"Believe on him who saved you, [girl's name]. 'I want to believe. I do'[she said] 'Then believe'[said the prophet]. 'I try to believe' [she said]. 'Believe,' said the prophet, 'set your mind and heart upon Christ and obey the word of the Lord. Stand firm. God himself is going to fight for you."

"Just tell Jesus you trust Him and ye're waiting on him to tell you what to do."

And my all time favorite (sorry, it's long...)
"It was no accident, no coincidence, that the seasons came round and round year after year. It was the Lord speaking to us all and showing us over and over again the birth, life, death , and resurection of his only begotten Son, our Savior, Jesus Christ our Lord. It was like a best-loved story being told day after day with each sunrise and sunset, year after year with the seasons, down through the ages since time began. I knew after hearing the word of the Lord, I'd never walk anywhere again without seeing Jesus as a babe in the new-green of spring. I'd never see a field in all its glory without thinking how he lived his life for us in the royal robes of every summer wildflower. I'd ever see the greatness of his love in the beautiful sacrifice in the brilliant reds, oranges, and yellows of fall, and winter white would always speak to me of his death. And then spring again, his resurrection, life eternal."

luv it, luv it!!! so, yeah the book was encouraging. that last passage just made me stop and think of how many times i've "seen" God. just step out and observe nature. stop and "see" God.

happy birthday!

Happy Birthday to my sister! luv!

Black History Month

so, i dont know the official results for the game, yet (in case i don't come back and post.) but this superbowl has special meaning for me. it's black history month and two black coaches are making history. AWESOME! so, whomever wins..GREAT. Have a great BHM. (although we know we should celebrate history's greatness all the time.) go out and learn about your heritage. whatever it is! much love!

happy birthday, boo!

happy birthday to "mah, best frien.."! luv ya, Trese.

Bears and Butter Burgers

hooray for the chicago bears as they go on to the superbowl! i have to admit, i didnt even know what was going on until yesterday (when they played the big game that qualified them for the superbowl.) i used to like football in high school..but it's not so great now. oh well! but i do think its kind of neat on how last year it was the white sox and now it's the bears. is chicago great or what?

in other news..last night after yp service the gals and i went to culver's for dinner. so, so good. they have these butter burgers which are phenomenal. now, why they're called BUTTER burgers is beyond me...but they taste like those burgers you buy at amusement parks. i dunno i always thought those burgers tasted different. then of course they have the best ice cream, sundaes, shakes, and custards. you name it, they have it. so, so good. nothing else going on. i think trese's coming home this week, sometime. her bday is monday so if you know her..send her a shout out.

until the next post....BARACK OBAMA '08! ~luv (ohmigosh..i just realize another great chicago/illinois thing..Obama's from here too!)

Waiting on the World to Change....

I heard this song recently and it really stuck in my mind. Read through it and I think you get the gist of the author's message. I realize not all may agree, but it's something I feel strongly about in light of recent events in our political world. My prayers go out to all those who've lost their lives (both Americans and Iraqi's). The part of the song that really sticks out is when he's says, "It's not that we don't care. we just know that the fight aint fair." May the love of God enter into the hearts of men to help us realize that war isn't a means of solving anything.

~peace


JOHN MAYER
Waiting On The World To Change

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Happy Birthday, LANA!!!

and so it begins....the never ending birthdays. danes and lana kick it off..and then im telling you, there's a birthday every weekend until march! ok, happy birthday to my little sis. luv ya!

Happy Birthday, DANES!

Happy Birthday, Lydana! luv ya much! (my blog is starting to be all about you..hmmm.)

gibberish...and DANES!

4 days left...friday morning im heading out. im soo tired. like my mind can't seem to really focus on anything right now. i just need a vacation. anyhoo..im really hoping that i have a nice time. it's weird i luv it here in chicago/joliet..but sometimes i need to get away and think. whenever i go to arkansas it just seems like this weight is lifted and i can see a little clearer. i think its because i don't really have any worries when im home. it's truly a relaxing environment. because my real life is up here. and when i leave for a bit i can let it all go for a while. so, yeah it's nice to have a "getaway"...or as a pastor mentiond my "island of patmos" (remember how john was able to get away (well banished) to his island, but he got alone w/ God).

oh well. danes is home!!!! if she reads this i want her to know im so proud of her making it through her first semester of college. it's not an easy feat to go away for college. but i think it can help mold you into natural and spiritual maturity. i truly believe that in being here i've gotten to know God for myself. i can't say that when i left high school i was spiritually rooted. sure i was saved, but it was more like a way of life (being brought up COG) instead of being a true experience. i didn't experience God for myself until i had to seek and get to know him for myself. looking back, on those things i've gone through i can truly say they've brought me closer to God and it's been this experience that's kept me saved. so, yeah. i truly hope danes has that same experience. don't get me wrong, i dont think you have to leave to get it...but i would encourage every young person (espeacially in their young adult years) to take time and get to know God for YOU. whether it's finding a niche of your own or delving into your special talent...find God and get an experience. and do it before you go after the next phase of your life, so you can enter that phase knowing that as a single adult you finished your "single life" race and came out with those triumphs and victories he wanted you to win. let him take you out of your comfort level. let him do some molding and refining. Draw nigh to Him, so that he'll draw nigh to you. it'll take you a long way in life. ok....enough! goodnight!

hey..it's been a while since i did one of these things.

You Are 1: The Reformer

You're a responsible person - with a clear sense of right and wrong. High standards are important to you, and you do everything to meet them. You are your own worst critic, feeling ashamed if you're not perfect. You have the highest integrity, and people expect you to be fair.

What Number Are You?

in other news....exactly 6 days until christmas break. i am ecstatic (sp?)! im just ready for my llllooonggg break. i found out my cousins/uncle/aunt from california are coming to AR for the holidays. how nice! nothing much going on besides that. still wondering about what's going to happen next. 2007 is just around the corner and i've got a lot of life changing decisions to make. well, not a lot...i guess it's just one. but it's like a spiral thing. make the 1st decision and then other's follow. so, if you know the prayer of faith..call out my name.

also, i've noticed that someone named "anonymous" keeps signing my blog. it seems like the person knows me. but all the same, please reveal yourself (at least to me). i won't post it. i just need to know that you're not some weird, creepy person. those of you who kept up with my webpage back in the day know that i shut it down for those reasons. so, yeah...don't spoil it for everyone else. later!

i read this post today in a thought someone sent me. it was kind of profound to me. so, i thought i'd post it. i think it explains itself.

Look for God to move when he tells you to be still.

Psalms 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. KJV

school events!!!

here's a picture of me with one of my students before their christmas concert. i talked about it in the last post...



anyhoo, tonight was yet another school-event. as a fundraiser the teachers get together and have storytime at Barnes & Noble. Each teacher reads a book and the idea is that you get all the students at B&N and then when they're done listening to the story they decide to buy books. of course, a percentage of the book sale goes to the school. they do it every year and its a HUGE success...so, if you know a lot of people and need to raise money..there's an idea. so, i read the book The Night I Followed the Dog.It's one of my favorites. 1) because i LOVE dogs and 2) just because it's cute. so, if you want to read a picture book sometime or have little ones, i suggest you try it out. after reading i got together with my teacher friends and drank tea from the starbucks and wondered around. it was actually a lot of fun and relaxing. i realized that i really need to get out and do things for ME more so. So, im going to try that whole "take charge" thing i mentioned in september and try and sign up for a class (see..i get so busy that i forget about these things im supposed to be working on). the music store down the street from my house is having a class/concert this sat. so, that's the first "leap" for me. pray my strength. im overly shy, so it takes me a while to warm up to people and i totally freak out in new situations. oh, well. that's about it. :)